Thursday, 18 August 2016

Egg

Just like an egg. The longer you boil it, the harder it gets.

Similarly, the longer you wait, the harder the heart gets. For all you know, it might even have more bruises.

I long for a holiday. A very long one. A relaxing one on my own. 

Away from the hustle and bustle of the town. Away from the heartaches and annoying surroundings.

One day maybe.

One fine day.


Sunday, 31 July 2016

Lock it up

There are times when you should just keep quiet.

When people are aiming you for some reasons or another, and they are judging you before you can even defend yourself, there is just no way you can let them change their mind.

Especially when they are simply tired, lethargic, and easily agitated by even the slightest movement of your lips.

Sometimes you wish you could say something to lighten things up, but deep down, somehow you know instantaneously that nothing can be bright if it was all storm at the first sight.

Sigh..

I give up.

I guess I should just wait for another day.

Time heals a lot of things. Time gives people a reason to rethink. Time gives us hope.






Friday, 29 July 2016

Wait

"Good things come to those who wait."

So they say.

But you know what? I am born as an impatient person.

I hate waiting.

I hate to be kept waiting as i don't usually make people wait that long for me either.

One honest advice to everyone out there:

Just be on time.




Tuesday, 5 July 2016

Ramadan this year

We usually look for Allah's guidance when we are in pain, sorrow, or when we feel lost. Even if we do pray, during happy times, we don't do the extras as much as when we are in misery. Such hypocrites we are. 

I remember that a friend of mine said in her Facebook's status that no one in this world can say the word "love" when they are in a quarrel, feel betrayed or insulted as all the feelings of love and affections have gone. On the other hand, even if we go against Allah's orders, it is clearly stated in many surahs in the holy Al-Quran that if we repent, Allah will forgive our guilty deeds as Allah is Ever-Forgiving and Ever-Merciful. 

This Ramadan, many unforgettable incidents take place around me. On the first Ramadan itself, my car was knocked from behind while I was driving to the office. Alhamdulillah neither me nor the person who knocked my car was injured. My car was in the workshop for about 20 days so I was carless that whole time. 

During this Ramadan too, 2 of my very close friends gave birth. One of them had some complication that she had to be in the hospital for many weeks until the day that she delivered her baby. She got another complication after giving birth that she has to be closely monitored by the doctors. I got very worried of her but alhamdulillah things are getting better from the looks of it. Hope that she can be discharged soon and a second operation is not needed.

Just 3 days ago my sister told my family that my nephew was down with chicken pox, so our Eid arrangement has to be re-planned. Initially our plan was to have everyone at home on the 1st day of Eid, but since my nephew has to be quarantined and not to be in contact with others who have not got chicken pox yet, we have to make some sacrifices for this year's Eid. This also means we can't accept visitors to our house. *cries*

This morning I woke up to a very shocking news whereby there was an explosion in Madinah. Madinah! Of all places! I had to reread the news many times to make sure I didn't get the name  of the place wrong.  This Ramadan has a lot of tragedies with bombings in many Muslim countries. I can't believe how people can still relate ISIS with Islam. Obviously, there is nothing Islamic about killing innocent people.  

To sum up, it has been quite a challenging and meaningful Ramadan to most of us. With things that have been happening locally and internationally, all I can say is that aren't we lucky that we still have time to repent? To seek for forgiveness for all our mistakes and wrongdoings? Alhamdulillah we can still perform our ibadah and there are rooms for forgiveness.

Let's hope that we are given the chance to meet Ramadan again next year. At this corner, I would like to take the opportunity to say sorry to everyone who I have hurt in anyway. Ampun maaf dipinta.. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin. 




   Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum. :)

Thursday, 23 June 2016

Attention and time

Seriously I think it doesn't take that much to make a girl feel like a princess. Surely you know what issue I am referring to here, right?

I just feel weird how one's act can be a big thing and being shared countless of times on social media. How a guy cares for his girlfriend is not something to be compared with. Everyone has different ways of expressing love. 

I am not going to discuss further on that viral post, but to me, generally it is quite the same for all women out there, i.e.:

A woman always wants to feel like they are the center of the universe. 

Women do not like feeling neglected, neither do we like being second to anyone or anything . To me, guys do not have to spend that much of money just to show how much they care for their special ones. Personally, the sweetest thing a guy can do is to always include his other half in everything. A woman just wants to feel like her presence means a lot in her guy's life. That's all.

To women out there who are dreaming to have husbands/boyfriends who can shower you with wealth and expensive surprises, think again. Is that what you really want? Or is it their attention and time that you value most?




Though it is certainly nice to have sweet smelling surprises like this once in a while.. :)

Tuesday, 24 May 2016

Quality and Quantity

I love talking. No one that knows me well would deny the fact that I just can't stop talking when I am in a good mood. It is even better when I get to talk to people who are knowledgeable and are willing to share some of their valuable life experiences.

Sometimes you can have a really good conversation with the most random people and you know it's a good talk when it sticks in your mind. 

So I was riding an uber to my office on a Friday morning. During the whole ride, we had no silent moment as I realised he did most of the talking while I was intensely listening to his interesting thoughts. (I can be a good listener too ok, not just a talker).

Basically he is an uncle with 2 grown up children. He said that in current days, people are working very hard to achieve a certain lifestyle that they think is suitable for them. Sometimes that lifestyle is just a matter of what they want people to see them having, but it is not really what they need. 

For example, people buy expensive clothes for their children just for show, just for people to see. In actual fact, what the kids probably need is a practical clothing and it might not even be that expensive. Just for that kind of lifestyle people work so hard that they have no life balance anymore. 

He also mentioned that people nowadays love boasting of how they have quality time with their kids at home. Quality time is translated as having dinner together as a family and a time where they update each other of their daily lives. However, what they don't realise is that what they perceive as quality time might not even be quality time for the children. To use his words: "Syok sendiri saja mungkin."

Parents should know that quantity time is equally as important as quality time. What the children need is to have a peace of mind, of knowing that their parents are always there for them. Even if they are not talking, presence means a lot.

To be honest, I was so shocked to hear his words. It never crossed my mind of how quantity time is just as important. Maybe it's because I always have my parents wih me when I was young. They worked from 7.30am to 4.30pm and they were always around for me even during weekdays. Alhamdulillah, I am so blessed. :)

However, things have really changed nowadays with the young parents. Most young generations are ambitious.  To be fair, maybe the economy is equally not so good that people just have to push themselves further to make ends meet.

In all honesty, I don't mind if woking like crazy is the only option for us to survive in this world. But if we work with no life balance just to keep up with other people's lifestyle and expectations,  I think it's about time for us to rethink and open up our eyes to see the things that really matter in this world.

Thanks Uncle Uber. You have opened up my mind to a certain degree. :)

Monday, 18 April 2016

Appreciation

If you expect people to be nice, you should be nice. 

Similarly, if you love the fact that people are being appreciative towards you, than you equally should show some appreciation to people.

Appreciation doesn't just come in words. One can say all the sweet nothing, repetitively. However, if in reality the action is just other wise, the words do not mean anything. Nothing. Zilch.

Remember that action speaks louder than words. Your effort means so much more than your words. 

Know that your effort in knowing, effort in showing interest, effort in taking time to text, effort in trying to understand, and effort in explaining mean so much more than your words of saying: 

"I appreciate you."  

or

"I love you."

Saturday, 9 April 2016

Gone Girl

I like to think myself as a happy person. I rarely bother of how people think of me. I wear cheap clothes, i wear same things for a long time. I talk a lot, i laugh a lot. Some may say I'm annoying but i just don't stop being what I am.

However, lately I am becoming more and more negative. I may appear positive and happy in front of some people, but the truth is, i cry just as much as i laugh nowadays. Not that i would admit it publicly though.

To those who see me spacing out out or having a sudden mood change, just bare with me. I'm complicated. I have so much unsettle issues, mostly with my own inner thoughts.

I get depress when i expect something out ot a confrontation but i receive something totally different in return. I can't get angry all the time, so i just have to live with the thing i don't quite like i guess.

Though 'living with it' simply means i get deeper and deeper into depression. Yeah, i guess that cheerful side of me is slowly disappearing. Coz plastering a smile is sometimes tiring.

Saturday, 26 March 2016

The One That Listens

Maybe it's the heat wave. I find myself being overly sensitive in every issue. But i keep it within myself as i can't find anyone suitable to talk to.

Sometimes i miss my girlfriends. I miss having my girls around so that i can talk freely without being ashamed of being my cacat self. Without having to cover up any stories. Nothing is unsuitable when i talk to them.

However, it struck me one day that i depend too much on people. I find myself looking for someone to listen to my stories, when i realised that The One has always been here, waiting for me to pour my heart out. To tell and to cry over anything when i need something.

I have been so engrossed with the world that sometimes i forget the hereafter. I easily forget the reason why i am here in this world at the first place.

Oh Allah please forgive me. :(

Sometimes the real reason we feel empty is because we are so far away from our Creator. It's never too late to realise something. And it's never too early to change for the better.

To a better us, InsyaAllah.

Monday, 29 February 2016

Who cares

It is totally up to me to write whatever i want to in this corner.

It is up to me to feel pissed or angry to whomever i want to. It is definitely up to me to confront people or to just bottle things up.

It is also  up to me to let people understand me or to let people wonder what the heck is wrong with me.

It is up to you though, to read or to abandon this post.

It is not up to me to change anyone's mind on something.

And it is never up to me to make people care about my feelings or my thinking.