Friday, 23 September 2016


Sometimes I really feel like following my heart and just do weird and crazy things. However at the same time, sanity keeps me from doing them.

If I am much younger, I might just do whatever that crosses my mind at a particular time without considering much the consequences.

But now?

Syukurlah saya masih waras.

Sangat waras :D

Wednesday, 14 September 2016

Missing the lights and the blue sky of Minato Mirai

No matter how many times 

 I have been here,

Either with family 

Or with friends,

 I will always want to come here again.

Dear Yokohama, I wil be back. 

One day, InsyaAllah :)

Monday, 12 September 2016


If anyone should know, i will always stand by my principle i.e. I will never tell a lie for the benefit of others.

If I don't know, I shall say I don't know. I am not the type who simply does things to make others happy. Period.

Tuesday, 6 September 2016

I just do not understand when...

People do not give any chance to others to come up with an explanation. 

Of course there are times when we feel like punching someone's face for the stupid things that they have done. Most of the time when we start to get annoyed, we make assumptions that they are basically lazy bumps and merely stupid and childish and never think about others. 

However, I believe that for every single thing that someone has done or hasn't done, there must be a reason to it. Why not start by asking them why they did or did not do such things at the first place? Just let people explain before we start screaming and scare people off their chairs and get repetitive nightmares for 3 consecutive nights due the scolding and swearing (pardon me and my imagination).

Obviously it feels good to lash out our disappointment to someone, especially when we have a bad day. But think again, is it even worth it? Try giving a thought to what the other party might be going through at that time or what they might go through after getting the scolding and all, 

I may not be the most patient person in the world. Everyone around me can agree with that. But I think it is not wrong if we try to find out the reason for something first. To be honest, it annoys me even more when someone does not give any explanation and does not even try to explain that they have actually tried hard enough. 

Seriously, once we say some weird things without thinking, it is going to hurt us even more. Especially when we are calm enough to think and realise that some things might not be able to be fixed due to the words that we have uttered. 

I remember how my dad told me a few times, "No matter how bad you want to say something because you are angry and it surely feels good to let it out, stop yourself before you say it. The after effect is going to be worse. The relationship between you and that person might not be the same after you say it. Sometimes you are angry only at that moment, but when you lash out your anger, the effect is for a loong loong time."

So~ Can we all at least TRY to give people some space and chance to defend themselves? We are never above anyone else, remember that. Even the people under you, they have the right to speak too.

Find your inner peace and let your mind fly like the birds. :)

Sunday, 4 September 2016

You look different

Lately, a lot of people have been saying that I look different. And to be more specific, they say that I have lost a lot of weight. Some even say that they get confused of me with my sister because I am no longer that chubby girl that they used to know.

People seem to always ask me the same question, "Fiqah, ko diet ke?" And automatically too, I will say that I am not on diet.

Seriously, how can I be when I dare not reduce my rice intake? I am simply a big rice eater and I can't live without rice!

But it is pretty weird of just how many people are saying the same thing. It makes me wonder if I was that chubby a few years back.

Until I came across a picture of my last day in London........ I suddenly realised just how different I looked back then.

Uhuh, yes.. That girl on the left is me. Blegh.. 

To be fair, the desserts there are just to die for! Can you imagine of the heavenly waffles, cupcakes, pancakes, ice creams, chocolates etc? And all those amazing things can actually be bought at a very low price! How can anyone resist the temptation? Right?? 

At least not me... :P

But in a serious note, I am just glad that I am not into sweet food anymore since I came back to Malaysia. It feels really good to have self-control over my eating habit now. And I am pretty sure that healthier choice of food also plays a big role in making a 'different-looking' me.

But oh well. One thing for sure, this picture will always be a good reminder of just how happy I was back then in London.:P

P/S: Don't worry. I am even happier now. :D

Thursday, 18 August 2016


Just like an egg. The longer you boil it, the harder it gets.

Similarly, the longer you wait, the harder the heart gets. For all you know, it might even have more bruises.

I long for a holiday. A very long one. A relaxing one on my own. 

Away from the hustle and bustle of the town. Away from the heartaches and annoying surroundings.

One day maybe.

One fine day.

Sunday, 31 July 2016

Lock it up

There are times when you should just keep quiet.

When people are aiming you for some reasons or another, and they are judging you before you can even defend yourself, there is just no way you can let them change their mind.

Especially when they are simply tired, lethargic, and easily agitated by even the slightest movement of your lips.

Sometimes you wish you could say something to lighten things up, but deep down, somehow you know instantaneously that nothing can be bright if it was all storm at the first sight.


I give up.

I guess I should just wait for another day.

Time heals a lot of things. Time gives people a reason to rethink. Time gives us hope.

Friday, 29 July 2016


"Good things come to those who wait."

So they say.

But you know what? I am born as an impatient person.

I hate waiting.

I hate to be kept waiting as i don't usually make people wait that long for me either.

One honest advice to everyone out there:

Just be on time.

Tuesday, 5 July 2016

Ramadan this year

We usually look for Allah's guidance when we are in pain, sorrow, or when we feel lost. Even if we do pray, during happy times, we don't do the extras as much as when we are in misery. Such hypocrites we are. 

I remember that a friend of mine said in her Facebook's status that no one in this world can say the word "love" when they are in a quarrel, feel betrayed or insulted as all the feelings of love and affections have gone. On the other hand, even if we go against Allah's orders, it is clearly stated in many surahs in the holy Al-Quran that if we repent, Allah will forgive our guilty deeds as Allah is Ever-Forgiving and Ever-Merciful. 

This Ramadan, many unforgettable incidents take place around me. On the first Ramadan itself, my car was knocked from behind while I was driving to the office. Alhamdulillah neither me nor the person who knocked my car was injured. My car was in the workshop for about 20 days so I was carless that whole time. 

During this Ramadan too, 2 of my very close friends gave birth. One of them had some complication that she had to be in the hospital for many weeks until the day that she delivered her baby. She got another complication after giving birth that she has to be closely monitored by the doctors. I got very worried of her but alhamdulillah things are getting better from the looks of it. Hope that she can be discharged soon and a second operation is not needed.

Just 3 days ago my sister told my family that my nephew was down with chicken pox, so our Eid arrangement has to be re-planned. Initially our plan was to have everyone at home on the 1st day of Eid, but since my nephew has to be quarantined and not to be in contact with others who have not got chicken pox yet, we have to make some sacrifices for this year's Eid. This also means we can't accept visitors to our house. *cries*

This morning I woke up to a very shocking news whereby there was an explosion in Madinah. Madinah! Of all places! I had to reread the news many times to make sure I didn't get the name  of the place wrong.  This Ramadan has a lot of tragedies with bombings in many Muslim countries. I can't believe how people can still relate ISIS with Islam. Obviously, there is nothing Islamic about killing innocent people.  

To sum up, it has been quite a challenging and meaningful Ramadan to most of us. With things that have been happening locally and internationally, all I can say is that aren't we lucky that we still have time to repent? To seek for forgiveness for all our mistakes and wrongdoings? Alhamdulillah we can still perform our ibadah and there are rooms for forgiveness.

Let's hope that we are given the chance to meet Ramadan again next year. At this corner, I would like to take the opportunity to say sorry to everyone who I have hurt in anyway. Ampun maaf dipinta.. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin. 

   Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum. :)

Thursday, 23 June 2016

Attention and time

Seriously I think it doesn't take that much to make a girl feel like a princess. Surely you know what issue I am referring to here, right?

I just feel weird how one's act can be a big thing and being shared countless of times on social media. How a guy cares for his girlfriend is not something to be compared with. Everyone has different ways of expressing love. 

I am not going to discuss further on that viral post, but to me, generally it is quite the same for all women out there, i.e.:

A woman always wants to feel like they are the center of the universe. 

Women do not like feeling neglected, neither do we like being second to anyone or anything . To me, guys do not have to spend that much of money just to show how much they care for their special ones. Personally, the sweetest thing a guy can do is to always include his other half in everything. A woman just wants to feel like her presence means a lot in her guy's life. That's all.

To women out there who are dreaming to have husbands/boyfriends who can shower you with wealth and expensive surprises, think again. Is that what you really want? Or is it their attention and time that you value most?

Though it is certainly nice to have sweet smelling surprises like this once in a while.. :)