Road to happiness.

I was totally moved by the story line. I could feel the pain, the sadness, the determination and every other emotions that the writer tries to convey to her readers. It was such a gripping story that I couldn't fake my feelings. It was just five minutes ago I finished reading this book and it was also five minutes ago that my eyes were uncharacteristically being a bit watery. Weird...

Every time I hold on to a good book, it is difficult for me to put it down. It is almost impossible for me to even realise what is happening around me when my mind is brought to this 'other world'. My sleeping time even went haywire these past couple of days due to my eagerness to finish up the story. That's just me. My bad habit everytime I have a good book in my hands. I will continue reading until my eye lids get really heavy. Until the words become unreadable and make no sense anymore. Only then I will surrender, stretch my hand on the switch and reluctantly turn off the lights. And just within seconds I will be in dream land.

 

Well, of course this book which I read is just a fiction, but the message that Jojo Moyes, the writer, wants to convey is so clear(as far as I can see). 'Me Before You' is actually a simple story about 2 people with different angles of life. A disabled guy who has been spending his life on a wheelchair after a terrible accident really wants to die as he can't accept his new fate, and a young girl who doesn't explore the meaning of life that much, works for this guy after she lost her old job.The story  starts with the girl being determined to  convince this guy to keep on living as there are much more to life than just complaining how bad things are. However, it turns out that somehow this guy has changed this girl's life by encouraging her to try more things out there and be fearless.

Okay, enough with the details. Until you read the book yourself you will understand what I mean.

The only part which I don't like in this book is about suicide. It is not our job to take our own lives. Leave that to Allah. He is the almighty and He knows what's best for us. Allah never burdens a soul more than it can bear. Well, I just hope I will never come across with someone who wants to kill him or herself. Nauzibillah... Even if I do, I hope I can somehow persuade these people to live and show them the real path.

It somehow makes me think, to what extend has my life made an impact on anyone? Have I directly or indirectly encouraged someone unknowingly in leading a better life? Once I am gone from this world, what kind of things will I be remembered of? *scary thoughts* I just hope I haven't given any bad influence on other people though. It is my secret wish (not a secret anymore) that everyone knows what the real meaning of life is. And also to appreciate the life more. 

Happiness can't be measured by the money and asset you have. Some people have the money, but they are not happy. Being blessed doesn't mean you are showered by wealth and fame. To me, being blessed is to be contented with the little things we have in life. To be satisfied that we are able to still breathe and see the beauty of God's creation. Even to be able to wake up in the morning and continue living is a great thing that we have to be grateful of. Being grateful is just the way to happiness.  

Remember, once we set our intentions straight that everything we do is for Allah, everything will be made easy for us. InsyaAllah. 

 From the smallest to the biggest thing, Allah makes it perfectly. Well balanced. MasyaAllah! :)

Alamak, dah termelalut pulak... Camni la bila baca buku macam2.. Isk... Goodnight! :D

Respect others first if you want to gain respect

You don't have to own a newspaper company. You don't have to be a radio deejay. You don't have to go all out to spread some news. Petty news especially. Just click log in, and go into your twitter or facebook account. Tell the world and spread the juicy gossips you might think of. Even 'better' if you have some eye-catching pictures to support your stories. 

How lame can people nowadays be?

I am quite sure we are busy with our own lives, (that what we ALWAYS say to other people : busy busy busy, not enough time etc) but how come people still manage to butt in other people's business? Especially the bad ones. Just look at ourselves. Are we good enough, are we perfect enough to talk bad about other people? Shouldn't we feel ashamed of talking about other people, especially about people whom we are not even connected to. Whom we haven't even spoken or met face to face at all. Do not judge people from how they look. It just shows how shallow we are.

YEAH, SURE you may come from the same country and all, and feel like it is your duty to to tell off the people who you think have gone out of track. BUT!! There is a proper way in giving advice. Even in Islam we are taught to be pleasant. Be nice and think before we say something. Do not say anything unless we are sure of something because if we say something wrong, it can be categorised as FITNAH (defame). Be careful when we speak even when the news is true.

The Prophet (pbuh) defined backbiting when he said:  "Do you know what is meant by backbiting?" They said, "Allah and His Messenger know best." He said, "To say something about your brother which he dislikes." One asked, "Even if what I say is true about my brother?" He replied, "If such defects you say are true about him, then you have backbitten him, and if he doesn't have what you say, then you have committed slander against him." 

(Related by Muslim, Abu Dawood, and Tirmidhi)

Hence, it is not allowed to talk about somebody in his/her absence, even if what was narrated was true. If it was not true, then it would be a bigger sin and it is called Buhtan (false accusation). 

source: http://www.islamawareness.net/Backbiting/backbiting.html

I am really disturbed to see the way people try to 'change' other people by giving advice by improper ways. What I mean by improper here is by condemning, saying nasty words and get angry. IF we really have the intention to give good advice, we should do the right way. Tell the people directly and NOT talk behind their back. That's the stupidest way ever, seriously. And if you don't have the opportunity to meet or drop some sincere advices to them, just pray for them. Do it the right way.

Remember, if we want to gain respect, we HAVE to start by respecting others. 

I remember my trip to Amsterdam where I stopped by at a mosque for evening prayes. I wasn't sure the wudhu (ablution) place for ladies, so I randomly went into the toilet and wudhu place for men. My brother and sister-in-law were waiting for me outside just in case anyone (particularly men) wanted to enter. When I wanted to perform my wudhu, I heard some noise outside. Hurriedly I did what was necessary and stepped out. I saw a few guys were waiting outside and some of them (probably one or more) were half yelling because they wanted to use the room. Poor my sister-in-law trying to explain things to them. I am not quite sure whether they were talking in Dutch or Arabic or both (or neither) but I felt so disappointed as it was a mosque. A place where we perform our prayers and it is where we should be nice to each other. 

Everybody makes mistakes, but try telling them in a good way. In a nicer way. Not by showing anger and yelling. If some non- Muslims enter the mosque and see such scenario, they will really get the wrong idea about Islam. How can we tell others that Islam is a religion of peace when we can't promote peace. *sigh*

So~~ people! Start your new year by being a better person. Only then, you will get the respect from others. This is a reminder for me as well.

 Yesss, let's start by saying... I am.... going to be a better person. InsyaAllah! ;)

Tata 2011~

Heyya~ It's almost 2012! Whoa! I am still reluctant to let this year pass. I have had so much fun and so many life turning experiences this year. This is also the year where I have met new amazing friends and I have been shifting from East to West. ^.^

Since I'm in a mood to reminisce, let me list the happenings from January up till December. 

(WARNING: It might bore you to tears!)

January:

• Abang Afiq and Syairah visited Japan (SoOo happy!!!)
• Ayah received an email from Abang Nash (Alhamdulillah!! Can't say it enough)
• Abang Nash and Kak Nora decided to come to Malaysia for Abang Afiq's wedding (Jumping with joy)

February:

• Submitted my thesis (YEYYYY!!!)
• Final year presentation went well!(Alhamdulillah!!! Soo relieved!!)
• Got a digital photo frame from my batchmates since I was the only one to leave ES1 :')

March:

• Japan was hit by the biggest earthquake + tsunami (heartbreaking T_T )
• 2nd visit to Korea. This time with Zzaaa (Burp)
• Received bad news about the Fukushima Daiichi nuclear... (everyone back home was super worried and wanted me to go back earlier than planned. But, I refused)
• Ayah and mummy came for my Graduation Day! (Yeehaaa~)
• Went back to Malaysia with my parents. (*SOBS* Sayounara Nippon T_T)

April:

• Holiday!!!! (Cuti-cuti Malaysia~~~)
• Applied for practical
• Applied for Postgrad course in the UK

May:

• Recieved unconditional offer from Sheffield, Warwick, Queen Mary University (OVERJOYED!!)
• Received offer from Manchester University for Nanoelectronics...
• Started taking my driving class... (Yeah yeah, verrryy late, I know ;p)
• Ayah's elevation for federal court (Alhamdulillah!!)
• Started my practical at Istana Budaya!!!! :D

June:

• Received unconditional offer from King's College London (decided to choose KCL over QMUL)
• Abang Nash and Kak Nora arrived in KL!! 
• Preparing for Abang Afiq's wedding (Yey!! New dress!! Hehe)
• Applied for student visa for the UK and it was accepted within 2 working days. (Alhamdulillah!!!)

July:

• Abang Afiq got married to Kak Mass and everything went well, Alhamdulillah! (Welcome to the family Kak Mass!!!)
• Practical students at IB organised  a musical show and I was the only one from Technical Department. (Got the experience to connect the microphones myself.. Hehe)
• Abang Nash and Kak Nora went back to Holland after a month in Malaysia :'((

August:

•  Had my driving test on the 2nd day of Ramadan. Fasting, but Alhamdulillah, I got through well!!! Passed with flying colours~~ (YEY!!! I've got my driving license!!!!!)
• Last day at IB, it was the buka puasa event, so I got to help a bit. And I got a little something from them too. (I'm so going to miss the IB crew and technical staff :') )
• Got the BIG news about Kak Aini's pregnancy while baking some cookies with my family. (So happy that we cried :') Syukur Alhamdulillah! )
• I got to fast the whole month! Weheww~ Lucky me!! :D

September:

• For the first time after so many years, we got to celebrate our Eid together as a family. A bigger family now. :)
• Came to London. (mixed feeling.. sad, yet thrilled to start a new life :) )
• 1st Term started and I had made a lot of new great international friends.. 

October:

• Ayah, Mummy, Abang Nash and Kak Nora came to London. Had a marvelous time, sightseeing together. :)
• First time experiencing daylight saving on the day the that clocks go back 1 hour. Weheww~ (Got extra 1 hout to sleep... Hahaha)

 November:

•  Got another awesome news, telling that Kak Mass is pregnant too!!! (YEYY~ I'll be a double auntie, InsyaAllah!!! )
• Went for Nottingham Games. 
• Had a weird birthday where some friends ditched me. Hahahhaha! Okay, maybe the mobile line was bad... Or birthdays in Kobe were always awesome. Well, we can't get everything, can we ;p (But still thanks to those who wished, gave me presents and Ainaa and friends who made a tupperware of tiramisu for me! :))

December:

• My 1st term ended.... Winter holiday started (Phew~)
• Went to Holland to visit my dearest Abang Nash and Kak Nora!! (Grrrreeeatt holiday!)
• Nadz came down to London. Met some of her friends. (First time on the London Eye, and my first time of Boxing Day! :D)

Well, to sum it up, as far as I can remember, 95% are happy moments. Or maybe even more than 95%. I do hope this coming year of 2012 will be equally as AWESOME or even far better year for me. And all of you!

Happy new year everybody!! :)


p/s: i'm sorry. suddenly the post looks kinda personal. hehe.. can't help it :P

 

waiting for the clock to strike 12~ :P

a tale of a girl

once upon a time, a little girl who was brought up by a pair of loving parents has been told to love everyone. she has been taught to see the world as a whole, be kind and treat people nicely. her parents and family members make her lead a very happy life thinking that everyone in the world is equally as nice.

when she was in her primary school she was so happy because what her parents told her was true. everyone was innocent and seemed so sweet. when she went to secondary school, she saw the life was becoming a bit rough. but she was still a very happy person. still a lot of nice people can be found.

but her doubt about life increases as she gets older. she feels that it is weird that how can people be less sensible and less sensitive when they get older. she thought people will get more mature and she was expecting more love will be spread around. sadly she only sees weird situations where people who are not bothered with other people's feeling are just increasing.

people without common sense. people who do not keep their promises. people who do just as they like. people who bail on someone. and. so. much. more.

this girl doesn't like it anymore so she just wrote it in her blog.

end

that's just awkward~~

Awkward moment or embarrassing moment. You name it. I don't know why when sometimes we have a normal happy chit chat, suddenly the ending part can be a real turn off. From one excited feeling to... booOm! An awkward one.

A lot of things have happened in London but I haven't updated anything yet. Well, not just yet. Too many things to handle especially this weekend. Because of this heavy load, suddenly I have the feeling to just write, yeah, to unwind a bit.

Back to the topic about awkward moment. I am not really good at handling these particular situation. It's like, I get dumbstruck and hope that the moment will just pass by. Let me tell you some situations when I wish my talking partner didn't mention or say those things.

Situation 1:
- There were 3 of us in the kitchen. Talking happily with each other in rather a friendly mode. Asking questions that we thought were relevant, looking at each other preparing our own dinner, until one of the girls left us to skype with her sister. And there was the small sweet looking girl left in the kitchen with me. I was already having my meal in the kitchen (tried to be friendly by eating in the kitchen just to meet my flatmates) while the girl was putting some food in her rice cooker. I started telling her how I was so lazy to start cooking properly. Since I still have the instant food, I should just eat them before they go bad. She was collecting her stuff to bring them back in her room. And before leaving she said to reply to my story, "Oh, yeah! That's why. I was thinking, what ARE you eating?!"

-____-

How could she say that!! I was eating something decent okay! Breads with chicken curry!! (Yep, instant chicken curry. Don't stare at me! I can cook curry okayh! It's just that I still don't have a knife to cook...) Anyway, I felt so stupid that I didn't know what to answer. I easily just laughed and looked at her opening and shutting the kitchen door.

*DANG!*

Situation 2:
- I was in the Muslim prayer room. Prayed Zohor prayer and rested there to wait for my next class. There was another Malay girl sitting next to me. Feeling so glad to have met another Malay, we talked and talked so much. She's such a sweet girl and seems so friendly. Had so much fun talking that I didn't realise it was almost time to go to class. I knew I had to make my move and said to her, "Okay, I have to go now. Nice meeting you. Will see around yeah! ;) " I zipped up my bag and started to make my move. On the spot she replied and said: "Yeah, See you. And you better buy a new bag sis!"

-____-

WHAT??? (For your information, there IS some err MINOR defect to the zipper of my bag. But it is STILL in a good condition. Yeah2, trying to justify myself) Well anyway, shouldn't we have a proper goodbye? SOBSS!! Luckily I like that girl that I didn't really feel like strangling her. Fuh! So I just gave her a light laugh and we exchanged salam.

Well, those are 2 embarrassing situations (for me) at the end of a conversation. Here's another one which top the list. It happened at the early conversation.

Situation 3:
- It was a 20 minutes break for our lecture. A few minutes before class started, one girl who is taking the same module with me entered. I was talking with my friend who was sitting behind me. The girl sat a few seats away from my friend and I can't remember clearly how but suddenly the girl was talking to me. She asked me where I come from. I told her 'Malaysia' and I asked her back. She said, '**********' (censor for safety purposes)' I might have given her a stupid look or something, that she started to explain where her country is. Roughly I got the idea and nodded saying,'Oh! Okay!' And guess what she replied?

'YOUR GEOGRAPHY IS REALLY BAD!'

-_____________________-

HELLO! It's our first encounter! Can't you say something nicer? (And we didn't get to ask each other's name. Thank god our lecturer came back to start the class) Huu~~ But I guess it's alright. Maybe people when they get older, they tend to say everything what they think right from their mind.

*Should I turn into one as well?*

I want!!!!

i want to be happy 24/7.

i want to have a lot of money and spend them on the things i love.

i want my best friends to always be there.

i want my family to stay with me all the time.

i want my parents to stay with me in london for the whole year.

i want things to go my way!!!

SHOUT to my ears NOW and tell me that it's not going to happen. Hurm~~ Okay, so i asked for the impossible. SIGH!

Err, ok.. One more time. Last one.

I just want to be a good student and live a good life in London and get good results! That's all I'm asking for at the moment.

Does that sound possible enough? ;)

Journey to the west.

My last post was in June?? 3 freaking months ago? Haish! How can that be possible? For 5 months of holiday I still can't bring myself to scribble something. Yeah, I am totally annoyed with myself now. T.T

Anyway, everyone seems so attached with facebook and twitter nowadays that I am grateful I can know more about my family and friends better no matter what the real distance among us is. From the looks of it, my friends are or have been busy preparing for their wedding or engagement days. Congrats from me to you dearies!! I am so happy for all of you~

Sadly I am busy for something else. Busy preparing myself to leave the country! Huwaa~~ (bunyi macam kena buang negara lah pulak)

Exactly in 3 days I am leaving on the jet plane to be taken away from my beloved Malaysia. No more east, I am now heading west. InsyaAllah to London for my postgraduate course. Please pray for me that everything is safe and smooth sailing for me.

And most important of all, I pray to Allah to keep my faith to You and to strengthen my Iman. O Allah please guide me to the right path and protect me from any harm. Only to you I seek for help and guidance. Amin!

Bye bye long happy holiday~ Gonna miss this laid back relaxing life. Gonna miss you dear Malaysia, and most definitely, the the heavenly food. ;D

Tata~

say no to self pity

always be strong. always show your positive side. show to others how pleasant and happy life is. sharing good things with people is better than telling the sad stories of yours. of course there is nothing wrong in saying how we truly feel, how high our hope is for our life to get better. but isn't there a lot of other good things happen in our everyday life instead of just SORROW and AGONY?

telling people how sad we are is acceptable once in a while. but again and again whining about how life treats you bad doesn't change anything. at first people might pity you, but if you overdo it, people might get bored and might even think that there is DEFINITELY something wrong with you.

anyway, keep splashing good vibes around you. smile more. live life to the fullest and be appreciative in everything that we have. remember, no matter how difficult our life is, there are still people who are dying and struggling to even breathe some fresh air.

so, lets us all delete these few words:

sick, pain, die, heartache, loser, trouble, bad news, sadness etc2...

say UGHhhhh to these words!!!

and say YESSSS to: HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY DAYSSS~~ =)

i have my parents by my side

i am the luckiest person on earth...

i am THE luckiest person on earth...

i AM the luckiest person on earth....

i definitely AM the LUCKIEST person on earth!!

oh what the heck. i love saying it so many many many times in different intonation and different ways. as i do believe that! =))

i have 2 main reasons for saying that.

one, i have the greatest father in the whole world.
number two, i have the greatest mother in the whole world.

everyone is celebrating mothers day, but my family has a double celebration today. as well as it is Mother's Day, it is also my father's Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =))

to my ever coolest ayah, you definitely are my dad, my teacher, my entertainer, my best friend and always always, my hero.

to my ever charming mummy, you are of course, my mother, my sunshine, my doctor, my shopping partner, and always always my role model.

the both of you are my life. my soul. my EVERYTHING!!! you mean the world to me...

i love you sooOo soOo much! only God knows how much i love the both of you. i can't imagine living without you. please, never ever abandon your child here, as i am still and always be a kid when i am next to you. ALWAYS!

so, here goes my wish to the both of u:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUMMY.

may Allah bless you with eternal happiness, health, love and everything good that can ever be received.

again and again....

I LOVE YOU! =)

MUAHXXxxxxXXX!

where can i find such place?

i wish to have a secret hideout to let out any disturbed feelings.
any negative feelings that can't be shared with anyone else.

i feel like going on top of a hill and just scream out loud.
where no one can hear. where no one can get hurt.

but i am still here. on a chair. in front of my laptop.

and nothing changes. nothing ever can change if no action is taken.

i am still here. keeping my mouth shut. but no desire to let it out.