Friday, 29 July 2016


"Good things come to those who wait."

So they say.

But you know what? I am born as an impatient person.

I hate waiting.

I hate to be kept waiting as i don't usually make people wait that long for me either.

One honest advice to everyone out there:

Just be on time.

Tuesday, 5 July 2016

Ramadan this year

We usually look for Allah's guidance when we are in pain, sorrow, or when we feel lost. Even if we do pray, during happy times, we don't do the extras as much as when we are in misery. Such hypocrites we are. 

I remember that a friend of mine said in her Facebook's status that no one in this world can say the word "love" when they are in a quarrel, feel betrayed or insulted as all the feelings of love and affections have gone. On the other hand, even if we go against Allah's orders, it is clearly stated in many surahs in the holy Al-Quran that if we repent, Allah will forgive our guilty deeds as Allah is Ever-Forgiving and Ever-Merciful. 

This Ramadan, many unforgettable incidents take place around me. On the first Ramadan itself, my car was knocked from behind while I was driving to the office. Alhamdulillah neither me nor the person who knocked my car was injured. My car was in the workshop for about 20 days so I was carless that whole time. 

During this Ramadan too, 2 of my very close friends gave birth. One of them had some complication that she had to be in the hospital for many weeks until the day that she delivered her baby. She got another complication after giving birth that she has to be closely monitored by the doctors. I got very worried of her but alhamdulillah things are getting better from the looks of it. Hope that she can be discharged soon and a second operation is not needed.

Just 3 days ago my sister told my family that my nephew was down with chicken pox, so our Eid arrangement has to be re-planned. Initially our plan was to have everyone at home on the 1st day of Eid, but since my nephew has to be quarantined and not to be in contact with others who have not got chicken pox yet, we have to make some sacrifices for this year's Eid. This also means we can't accept visitors to our house. *cries*

This morning I woke up to a very shocking news whereby there was an explosion in Madinah. Madinah! Of all places! I had to reread the news many times to make sure I didn't get the name  of the place wrong.  This Ramadan has a lot of tragedies with bombings in many Muslim countries. I can't believe how people can still relate ISIS with Islam. Obviously, there is nothing Islamic about killing innocent people.  

To sum up, it has been quite a challenging and meaningful Ramadan to most of us. With things that have been happening locally and internationally, all I can say is that aren't we lucky that we still have time to repent? To seek for forgiveness for all our mistakes and wrongdoings? Alhamdulillah we can still perform our ibadah and there are rooms for forgiveness.

Let's hope that we are given the chance to meet Ramadan again next year. At this corner, I would like to take the opportunity to say sorry to everyone who I have hurt in anyway. Ampun maaf dipinta.. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin. 

   Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum. :)

Thursday, 23 June 2016

Attention and time

Seriously I think it doesn't take that much to make a girl feel like a princess. Surely you know what issue I am referring to here, right?

I just feel weird how one's act can be a big thing and being shared countless of times on social media. How a guy cares for his girlfriend is not something to be compared with. Everyone has different ways of expressing love. 

I am not going to discuss further on that viral post, but to me, generally it is quite the same for all women out there, i.e.:

A woman always wants to feel like they are the center of the universe. 

Women do not like feeling neglected, neither do we like being second to anyone or anything . To me, guys do not have to spend that much of money just to show how much they care for their special ones. Personally, the sweetest thing a guy can do is to always include his other half in everything. A woman just wants to feel like her presence means a lot in her guy's life. That's all.

To women out there who are dreaming to have husbands/boyfriends who can shower you with wealth and expensive surprises, think again. Is that what you really want? Or is it their attention and time that you value most?

Though it is certainly nice to have sweet smelling surprises like this once in a while.. :)

Tuesday, 24 May 2016

Quality and Quantity

I love talking. No one that knows me well would deny the fact that I just can't stop talking when I am in a good mood. It is even better when I get to talk to people who are knowledgeable and are willing to share some of their valuable life experiences.

Sometimes you can have a really good conversation with the most random people and you know it's a good talk when it sticks in your mind. 

So I was riding an uber to my office on a Friday morning. During the whole ride, we had no silent moment as I realised he did most of the talking while I was intensely listening to his interesting thoughts. (I can be a good listener too ok, not just a talker).

Basically he is an uncle with 2 grown up children. He said that in current days, people are working very hard to achieve a certain lifestyle that they think is suitable for them. Sometimes that lifestyle is just a matter of what they want people to see them having, but it is not really what they need. 

For example, people buy expensive clothes for their children just for show, just for people to see. In actual fact, what the kids probably need is a practical clothing and it might not even be that expensive. Just for that kind of lifestyle people work so hard that they have no life balance anymore. 

He also mentioned that people nowadays love boasting of how they have quality time with their kids at home. Quality time is translated as having dinner together as a family and a time where they update each other of their daily lives. However, what they don't realise is that what they perceive as quality time might not even be quality time for the children. To use his words: "Syok sendiri saja mungkin."

Parents should know that quantity time is equally as important as quality time. What the children need is to have a peace of mind, of knowing that their parents are always there for them. Even if they are not talking, presence means a lot.

To be honest, I was so shocked to hear his words. It never crossed my mind of how quantity time is just as important. Maybe it's because I always have my parents wih me when I was young. They worked from 7.30am to 4.30pm and they were always around for me even during weekdays. Alhamdulillah, I am so blessed. :)

However, things have really changed nowadays with the young parents. Most young generations are ambitious.  To be fair, maybe the economy is equally not so good that people just have to push themselves further to make ends meet.

In all honesty, I don't mind if woking like crazy is the only option for us to survive in this world. But if we work with no life balance just to keep up with other people's lifestyle and expectations,  I think it's about time for us to rethink and open up our eyes to see the things that really matter in this world.

Thanks Uncle Uber. You have opened up my mind to a certain degree. :)

Monday, 18 April 2016


If you expect people to be nice, you should be nice. 

Similarly, if you love the fact that people are being appreciative towards you, than you equally should show some appreciation to people.

Appreciation doesn't just come in words. One can say all the sweet nothing, repetitively. However, if in reality the action is just other wise, the words do not mean anything. Nothing. Zilch.

Remember that action speaks louder than words. Your effort means so much more than your words. 

Know that your effort in knowing, effort in showing interest, effort in taking time to text, effort in trying to understand, and effort in explaining mean so much more than your words of saying: 

"I appreciate you."  


"I love you."

Saturday, 9 April 2016

Gone Girl

I like to think myself as a happy person. I rarely bother of how people think of me. I wear cheap clothes, i wear same things for a long time. I talk a lot, i laugh a lot. Some may say I'm annoying but i just don't stop being what I am.

However, lately I am becoming more and more negative. I may appear positive and happy in front of some people, but the truth is, i cry just as much as i laugh nowadays. Not that i would admit it publicly though.

To those who see me spacing out out or having a sudden mood change, just bare with me. I'm complicated. I have so much unsettle issues, mostly with my own inner thoughts.

I get depress when i expect something out ot a confrontation but i receive something totally different in return. I can't get angry all the time, so i just have to live with the thing i don't quite like i guess.

Though 'living with it' simply means i get deeper and deeper into depression. Yeah, i guess that cheerful side of me is slowly disappearing. Coz plastering a smile is sometimes tiring.

Saturday, 26 March 2016

The One That Listens

Maybe it's the heat wave. I find myself being overly sensitive in every issue. But i keep it within myself as i can't find anyone suitable to talk to.

Sometimes i miss my girlfriends. I miss having my girls around so that i can talk freely without being ashamed of being my cacat self. Without having to cover up any stories. Nothing is unsuitable when i talk to them.

However, it struck me one day that i depend too much on people. I find myself looking for someone to listen to my stories, when i realised that The One has always been here, waiting for me to pour my heart out. To tell and to cry over anything when i need something.

I have been so engrossed with the world that sometimes i forget the hereafter. I easily forget the reason why i am here in this world at the first place.

Oh Allah please forgive me. :(

Sometimes the real reason we feel empty is because we are so far away from our Creator. It's never too late to realise something. And it's never too early to change for the better.

To a better us, InsyaAllah.

Monday, 29 February 2016

Who cares

It is totally up to me to write whatever i want to in this corner.

It is up to me to feel pissed or angry to whomever i want to. It is definitely up to me to confront people or to just bottle things up.

It is also  up to me to let people understand me or to let people wonder what the heck is wrong with me.

It is up to you though, to read or to abandon this post.

It is not up to me to change anyone's mind on something.

And it is never up to me to make people care about my feelings or my thinking. 

Monday, 1 February 2016

Bizarre audition experience

I don't know where I got the strength or the bravery to go to yet another audition. Yes, another one. *crazy*

This time I went with my ex colleague, Nunu, because we have our own private bucket list to tick off (#ipvolusibucketlist). Only the 2 of us managed to go but it was good enough to have someone to do crazy things together. :)

So on that eventful Saturday, we registered ourselves for the audition at Sri Pentas around 12.20 pm. As time passed, I knew for a fact that we would have to wait for a long time, so Nunu and I decided to have our lunch at the cafetaria. I asked the girl at the registration counter which batch we were in. 10th batch she said, and batch 8 just got called right before that. Each batch takes roughly 30 minutes before the next batch would be called up. 

20 people from each batch, and everyone was supposed to take a written test as the 1st stage of the audition. Glad we asked or else we had to wait hungrily for more than an hour. Anyway, a bit before 2pm Nunu and I got back to the registration waiting room, and not long after that our names were called to take the written test.

It was interesting because it was somewhat a big audition, hence cameras were literally everywhere to capture good moments of the audition. Nunu and I went there for fun and we were being our crazy selves chit chatting away about all our weird possible turn outs from the audition, so it felt a bit funny when we saw some people who looked quite serious and really focused while waiting for their names to be called.

Right after we registered ourselves.

Anyway, after our own names were called, we were asked to proceed to the 1st floor. The 20 of us went to one of the meeting rooms in the Priwework Studio and we were given 3 sheets of paper each. The questions include history, geography, general knowledge, IQ test and mathematics. At 2.10 pm we started answering and we were given 15 minutes to answer all the subjective questions. When the time was up, the person in charge collected our papers and told us that we had to wait around 15 minutes for the announcement, whether we made it for the first stage or not. 

While waiting for our results.

While waiting, we took the opportunity to know each other. We introduced our names, age and our profession. Most of the girls are so relaxed and friendly. I felt at ease already with them. It lasted for just a few minutes. Around 2.40 pm, one guy came in and called the names that scored more than 15. Only 3 out of the 20 got through it, and alhamdulillah, I was one of them. Hehe... Honestly, I was super excited to continue with the audition. :P

After the other 17 people made their move out of the room, the 3 of us were briefed on the things that we had to do. Basically he was saying about the contract that we had to sign. He then transferred us again to another waiting room not too far from our original room, where we met a few other people who passed the 1st stage from the previous batches. Lovely and confident ladies they all are I must say. They got their audition numbers and left the 3 of us again in the waiting room, where we read the long list of contract, about the dos and don'ts. Phew... Seriously, that was one long contract.

A few minutes later, a few other people from next batches came in and joined the 3 of us. Again we introduced ourselves and undoubtedly the girls who got through the first stage were not just anyone. They have the brains and most of them are really confident of themselves. Just by talking with to them I can see how much they really want to get through this audition and be a part of the show. Pretty amazing, huh? And there I was, being there for the sake of taking up the challenge and ticking off our private list. *sorry*

We had to wait in that room for more than an hour. Due to the long wait my head started to feel a bit heavy and I couldn't sit still. I had panadols in my handbag and I really wanted to swallow them but I didn't have any drinks with me. I made my way to the surau and prayed Zohor trying to ease the headache. But after coming down again, still nothing happened and I was getting a bit restless. On one of the bean bags I was already sitting uncomfortably and couldn't care less how I looked like. (Despite knowing cameras might suddenly appear without warning from outside the glassed room).

Thank God a few minutes later one of the persons in charge came in and gave out our audition numbers. My lucky number was 6046. (The first digit i.e. 6 means the 6th day of the audition, 46 means the 46th person to be interviewed for the day). We had to stick the number on our chest and we were escorted outside the room to another open area in front of the lift to wait for our respective turns. That is actually the same place where I had waited during my first ever audition a month ago.  

Not feeling well. Just wanted to get it done and over with.

While waiting, my head was throbbing hard and I felt like vomiting. At that particular moment I just wanted to buy a drink and get the pain killer. As I knew there were still 9 people before my turn, I asked a few of the girls to join me to go to the cafetaria. After a very looong while, I finally managed to take the panadol. But even after consuming it, the dizziness wouldn't go away. The girls actually were concerned, asking if I was alright and if I have had any history of collapsing anywhere previously. I reassured them that nothing as such has ever happened. I think I must have looked so pale and not well. 

After the girls had finished eating, I excused myself to the toilet. There, I just couldn't control myself. I vomited. A lot. I am quite sure everything I swallowed during the lunch time was thrown out. I made up my mind that if I didn't get better, I would leave and go home straightaway. I gave myself a few minutes and I touched up a bit my face. I felt better after throwing up. My head felt lighter so I decided to continue the journey.

When I went up to the waiting area, there were still 7 people to go before my turn. So what I did was to go to the surau and set my alarm clock. Yes, I took a power nap. Just what I needed. After 15 minutes of sleep I woke up and took my ablution and prayed Asar.

Alhamdulillah, I felt sooo much better after that. When I went back to the waiting area, there were just another 3 people before my turn. At that time I felt relaxed and I was myself again. All talkative and making jokes with the girls again. We took photos together and talked with other girls who already passed their auditions. Quite an awesome group of people I must say. Very supportive towards each other that it made me feel all okay again.

With some of the lovely ladies.

When they called my name, it was already past 6pm. I entered the room with a clip mic glued to the back of my audition number. Also like my previous audition, there was a camera rolling. The audition went well alhamdulillah. I just had to introduce myself and answered a few questions by the juries. And of course I had to answer why I went for the audition. I didn't know where I got that inspiration to answer the question but alhamdulillah I think I answered well enough. Hahaha!

Sooo... the turn out from my audition? Alhamdulillah I got through it. :) Despite the vomit and all. I was given the golden ticket!! But I guess my journey would just be up till there because they still have to shortlist the girls who also got the golden tickets into 28 people. 

If I get it, I would be super surprised. 

THE Golden Ticket! I told the juries that I wanted to represent Selangor because I had no contribution to Johor, although I was born in JB.

Anyway, it was such a VALUABLE experience I must say. Trying out for these things somehow make me see how others perceive something and how far people will actually go to achieve their dreams. Most of the girls I met there were really serious about entering and to be one out of the 14 finalists. I am impressed by their determination, seriously I do.

Oh, another interesting turn out is that, one part of my audition was actually included in the Melodi yesterday. Gosh how funny. Even for that short 1 second manyyy of my friends actually saw me on TV. 

Ha ha ha ha

As I missed the Melodi yesterday, I watched it at tonton instead. :P

Okay, let's just wait till next week. If there's no phone calls whatsoever, I will just move on. :D

Tuesday, 19 January 2016

India is more than just Taj Mahal

It is true when people say India is different from other countries. 

A few days back I went to India for a conference and took the opportunity to travel around a bit. I had been talking about going to India for quite some time already, so I was super excited when my boss finally  agreed to bring me along for the conference.

So the conference was from 7th to 9th January 2016. As the schedule was quite packed, we only had the chance to go out on the final day of the conference around 7pm for dinner at Saket Slect City Walk. Got the chance to go 'missing' for awhile with Munirah to buy our sweater before the other 4 guys were relieved to see us safe and sound, looking happy with our catch of the night. Seriously, sorry guys for leaving without letting you know where we were heading to. *I even got a proper warning from my boss for not roaming my phone as it was dangerous, especially during emergency time.(>.< ")*

5 from Malaysia, 1 from Mauritius Guess what? We were seated on the stage as no other tables were available. :) 

Showing off some dusty skill. Can you see what I was holding?

6 of us with 4 Hard Rock Cafe staff. They must have liked us that much to ask to take photo with us. :D *This is before Munirah and I went 'missing'*

Anyway, on the 10th of January, me, my boss,Munirah and Alwi checked out from our hotel. Our driver, Bansi, picked us up at the hotel and that's when our real journey started. 

If you are looking for a leisure trip, India might not at all be suitable for you. However, if you are up for an adventure, and to see how magical and different one country can be, then India is definitely a place you should visit. India is a colourful country, never quiet, never boring and definitely full of life.

During the trip, I saw a lot of eye opening events: 

Some people are living on the streets, but they can still live happily. 

I saw small kids who roam around the streets waving to us, and they probably have some of the most sincere smiles I have ever seen. 

The roads in India are so unsystematic, but much to my surprise, there was not even one accident that caused death. Even minor accidents are very very rare in India. You should see how they drive there. With the honks are heard almost every other second, people crossing the roads like they are made of steel, and many different animals walking/sleeping on the road as if they are in the jungle, I just didn't see any accidents when I was there. Seriously... it is like a miracle.

I remember our first tour guide in Delhi, Vikee, said:
"To drive in India, you don't need to have any experience or a license. You only need 3 things:
Good horn.
Good brakes.
Good luck,"

Gosh, how we laughed so hard when he heard that. But as days passed by, I figured that it is somehow very true.................

Anyway, we went for the golden triangle trip. From Delhi to Agra, thereon to Jaipur, and finally back to Delhi again. India has so many historical places to visit and of course, one of the 7 wonders of the world is in India. It is no other than the Taj Mahal. 

At first I thought seeing Taj Mahal was the only thing I was keen to see. But I was wrong because India is more than just Taj Mahal. The forts and castles in India are magnificent. The life itself in India is full of energy. The bazaar and the food also, are amongst the things that people should not leave without.

I guess I have done most of the things there which I had been wanting to do and see. We took the horse ride to Taj Mahal, rode on the elephant to Amer Fort, we were wearing Indian traditional clothes while we were there in India, I played with the elephants and cobra, we ate a variety of Indian food, Munirah and I tried the ayurveda spa, we most definitely haggled at the bazaar, we got to cross the roads just like how the locals do it ....and.... the thing I never thought I did: 

Was to dance in saree. ^___^

Seriously, to me it was the ultimate. To be fair, I did think of doing it, but I never thought I could. So I guess this is just another thing I can tick off my bucket list. Weheww! I have somehow stepped out of my own comfort zone. IN INDIA! :)

Yep, how can anyone not agree. India is just amazing. Let the pictures tell you some of our amazing experience there. 

 Chandni Chowk, Delhi

Qutb Minar, Delhi

The Taj Mahal,Agra

On our tanga ride (horse ride) to Taj Mahal. 

The horse ride :)

Maharaja. Hahahah! He was almost forced into buying the turban before our elephant ride.

Our elephant ride to Amer Fort, Jaipur.

 Amer Fort, overlooking the lake. Yeah, quite hazy... The air in India is kinda poluted now, but we were lucky that the days have been sunny all the way. :)

The weird looking tourist in Amer Fort. ^_^

 One shot from far. :D

 Le boss almost got knocked down by the tame cow. :P 

Chandpole Bazar, Jaipur (?) Too tired to even try to look at all the stuff. And I almost ran out of cash at this time... blegh....

The highlight of my trip. The dance. Didn't get it on my phone, so I had to snap the pic from my camera... hahaha

Something that I didn't plan to do. But the cobra was too cute to resist. Seriously.

And.... the baby elephant, Montash, is just too adorable!

Oh, there is just another thing I wanted to do but I didn't get the chance yet. I haven't been on the tuktuk! Oh well, I guess that just gives more reason to visit the Incredible India once again.

With a certain someone probably this time? ;) 

The tuk tuk.