Wednesday, 13 April 2011

unconditional love

i wish i could learn not to love something or someone too much. i have always been so attached to something that it always tears my heart each time i have to be apart with it. though i rarely show my feelings and always appear positively alright, but deep down only God knows how hard i try to persuade myself that everything is going to be okay.

on my last day at high school, i remember well enough how empty my heart was. neither the bright shining sun nor the loud playing songs could lift up my spirit. just the thought of being away from my friends whom i have been living with for 5 whole years, made my heart sink. of course it was hard to say goodbye as we practically shared almost everything as it was a boarding school. for us girls, we lived under the same roof, we shared the same toilet and sometimes we even shared the same bed. (T__T) so, yeah, u got it. it was just a sad day for everyone.

us, having lunch at the dining hall

resting under the big tree when no one was around. yeah, only the form 5 students left.

our final goodbye. (Oops, soOo sorry girls, our faces were #$%&$% HAHAHAH)

somehow i thought i have learned a lesson on not to be so attached with the people around, but i don't seem to get it quite right. i must have spent so much time with the Kobeians i guess. to think again about it, well, sure enough i have done almost everything with them. hanging out together almost every weekend, having sleepovers and of course, 'makan-makan', which has always been a tradition even before i came to Kobe. we have always reminded ourselves that we are one big family, as we only have each other especially when our real family is far far away across the oceans.

my house warming

preparation to break our fast during Ramadan

our hari raya, picture taken at Kobe University

my last day in Japan. 30th March 2011. thanks all. love you all to pieces.

with the Kobeians i can actually understand quite well, but what surprises me is that i feel equally as sad to leave my labmates. i have spent time with them for only a few months. not even a year. if it were 2010, today would be my first time meeting my labmates and senseis. yes, exactly a year ago, i met these charming people of ES1 (the name of my lab) and ever since that day my days were full of music. again, i got attached. with this group of great people, i just couldn't help it.

the first time we went for bowling together

a dinner with my batchmates

our graduation day =)

the only picture i have with my beloved Sensei. no words can describe how thankful i am to have you as my sensei. Thank you so much sensei for all the support you have given me.

on my last day stepping out of the lab after saying goodbye to my seniors, i got this shaky feeling inside. my eyes felt kinda hot. i can't remember whether they were watery or not, but what i knew at that time was my life is just not going to be the same again. no more lab visits daily. no more tip toeing into the lab each time i go during weekends and see someone is asleep on the couch, no more early and long lunch breaks with my batchmates, no more concern questions from my beloved senior on my work, no more teasing voices and ....... haih ..... i guess that's going to be my last encounter with Japanese people. T___T

today is also the 2nd week i am in Malaysia. no matter how tough it is to be separated with those across the oceans, it still feels good to be here. to where my heart always belongs to. to where my family is.

the place where i call home.

as we exited KLIA. (it should have said, welcome home afiqah! but oh well, this is good enough.)

guess what i found on my bed when i first stepped in my bedroom! definitely a pleasant surprise.

and something i really miss having: a family dinner =)

seems like this is my full time commitment from now on. to think of it again, it's never a crime to be attached with something, right?

especially with your own family. give them your unconditional love! =)


  1. mcm da tua je tgk post ko ni ..
    npk cam dah habis lalui sume zaman tinggal keje dan branak pinak.
    eee tua nye ko

  2. hahah! apekah??! ko ok ke x? mane nye ayat nmpk aku tua nih... hahahah! makcik selebet nih~ ;P

  3. aaaaaaaaaaaauuuuaaaaa gambar aku nanges tu mcm syaiton pun ada..hahahahaha..

    ailebiu muah3

  4. macam syaiton? hahaha! astaghfirullah! sume pun hampagas muka nanges tak hengat dunia...hahahaha!! nasib aku muka maintain... ;D

    ailebiutuuuuuu~ muahXxXx!

  5. xpe nek..u still have me least for time being..sok lusa klo aku mati, buatlah 1 entry utk aku..liao..huahuahua

  6. isk kamu ni, ade ke cakap camtuh.. T.T mane cukup buat satu entry je utk ko, at least 5 aarr... hahah! nway, thankss pakcik!! =)