Monday, 11 November 2013

The Blame Game

"How would you know it was my fault? I did everything I could to be here on time, but clearly the luck was not on my side. The clock was broken that the alarm didn't go off at the right time this morning, the road was slippery because a lorry in front dropped some oil so I had to drive verry slowly just to make sure I can be here in one piece, a big huge cow was crossing the road at the very corner where I had to make a u-turn and the cleaner just had to clean the stairs when I was about to rush to swipe my card."

Okay, so that's a whole long list of excuses just to let people know you are not entirely at fault. Blame the clock, blame the lorry in front of you, blame a cow and blame somebody else. Just anything or anyone. As long as you are freed from trouble.

Or probably NOT.

Do you know that putting blames on other things just make you look miserable?

People seem to enjoy turning the table on others when something in their life just don't go as planned. 

Having financial problem? - Blame it on the inflation. 
Having trouble with relationship? - Blame it on your endless work at the office.
Having problem with health?- Blame it on people who always invite you to dine out.

..........and the list goes on.

How far does this blaming game bring you? 

Stop complaining and start finding alternatives. You run your life, not others.

I am tired of people who endlessly blaming on every worthless little thing just to prove a point that they are not entirely at fault. 

One piece of advice for you people out there who complain more than finding solutions: 

Get a life!

Oh, I blame it on you dear mocha (in general) for making me fat in London. :P

Thursday, 3 October 2013

The road not taken.

2nd October 2013 must have been one of the most shocking moments of my entire life. 

A friend from my secondary school batch 0004 just passed away. 

Nobody knows the reason of his death yet up till now, but I know that everyone from my school was just equally as shocked as I was upon hearing the news.

It's like a slap on my face when I saw my friend's message on whatsapp. 

At that time I was supposed to enjoy my dinner with my colleague at Satay Warisan Wak Radol near Kempas. We were happily talking and couldn't wait for our satay to arrive when suddenly I scanned through my handphone and saw the word "meninggal." I stopped talking and started to pay full attention on the screen and read again carefully.

A friend of mine asked us in the group whatsapp whether we were aware that our friend, Add just passed away. I literally lost for words and a lot of things came across my mind at that time. I felt kinda light headed.

My colleague must have seen my shocked face that she asked me why. I told her the news but I couldn't explain well. I had a lump in my throat and my eyes felt so hot. In a few seconds they were watery but I refused to let the tears drop. 

When I was a bit more calm and had regained my energy back, I started filling in and told my colleague about this guy.

This guy was a friend from secondary school and he used to come in and out my class though we never actually had the chance to be classmates in school. He was a friendly and chatty kind of person. I remember that he was in my group for PBSM in form 3. It was just for some group activity, but even with that I found him funny and he always tried to make our group alive. 

I also remember that he was a very generous person. Seriously he was. He could spend a lot of money on his friends without asking for anything back. He was one of the people who preferred to directly call rather than sending sms. After SPM, he always called our batchmates and just talked about anything under the sky, including me. At school we weren't really like the best of friends but the fact he also called me just to catch up is something I find really amazing. It's funny how I can even remember some of our conversations about how a guy used to have crush on this girl. 

Funny. It feels like yesterday.

He's such a good friend indeed. After a long long time, suddenly out of the blue he sent messages to me on facebook just trying to catch up. Asking how I was doing, he told me that he wanted to go to our friends' weddings and wanted to start mingling around again. One of the random stuff is that he told me about a girl he used to like at school. According to him, after one particular incident, this girl just refused to talk to him. Up till that day he was still hoping that he could meet her. He actually said that he tried to collect some information and finally he got this girl's number and started calling her again. I just laughed when he told me that. Kinda funny how much he went through to track this girl again. 

Anyway, after that day, a few times he had tried to chat with me again on facebook but I didn't really take the time to actually reply. 

Until 2 days ago when I got this piece of news, my heart just stopped and couldn't help feeling sad. I realise now that I wasn't really a good friend to him. Somehow I regret not putting more effort to keep in touch with a friend like him. :'(

To arwah Lt. Addrie Hisyam who was a sailor, may your soul rest in peace. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atasmu. Innalillahi wainna ilaihirajiun.

*Banyak betul orang terdekat meninggal kebalakang ni. To my late auntie (makwe) as well, semoga Allah tempatkan makwe bersama-sama orang-orang yang beriman. Amin...

No matter how clear you think the road ahead of u may be, think again. 
Allah might just change it in a split second. 

Friday, 30 August 2013

Where are the flags?

While writing this, I am in Singapore, waiting for the clock to strike 12. Waiting for the 31st of August, the Independence Day of our beloved country, Malaysia.

Sad but true, this year I see less enthusiasm from the Malaysians of our Independence Day. Have no idea why year by year, lesser number of flags can be seen around. In previous years, there used to be more flags in the independence month of August. 

I don’t know why people are less patriotic these days.

Is it because of people having so much hatred for the current government?

Can’t people differentiate between politics and patriotism?

Seriously, to see Malaysians are not proud of the country, our Jalur Gemilang and Negaraku song just saddens me.

No matter from what angle I try to look from, I still feel Malaysians are not independent enough.

If politics still play a big role in deciding whether or not to raise the country’s flag, it shows just how shallow one can be. And it is enough to tell how Malaysians’ minds have yet to be freed.

Yeah, I am disappointed. And even more disappointed not to get to celebrate this day in my own country…. 

~~credit to Google Image~~

Anyhow, I still want to wish, Selamat Merdeka oh tanah air tercintaku Malaysia. Aku sayang kamu!! I will never get bored saying this over and over again, that I am proud to be a Malaysian!!
Happy Independence Day Malaysians!! :)

Wednesday, 31 July 2013

The Incomparable

Some people might ask: How is Ramadan different from other months?

Well..... Every Muslim knows how special this month is.

"When Ramadaan begins, the gates of Paradise are opened, and the gates of Hell are closed, and the devils are chained up." Narrated by al-Bukhaari, 3277; Muslim, 1079. 

According to al-Nasaa'i: "The most evil jinn are chained up."

See, how can one not love this month so much? Allahu Akbar! :')

But putting the religious fact aside, don't you agree that Ramadan has a lot of difference compared to other months in our daily routine as well?

Well, to mine at least...

How so? Let me simply list them down so that I won't forget how much this month means to me.. :)

1) Rarely do I ever get the opportunity to dine with my family TWICE everyday... One for sahur, and another for iftar... :)

2) Early start during the day doesn't really bother me as much. Imagine during other months, I don't think I would ever want to get up any earlier than 6.20am...

3) So much money can be saved! Naturally~ As I don't need to spend money for lunch anymore. Plus, I only eat at home for iftar.

4) I get to go home earlier than usual. Usually I arrive home a little bit before 7pm. During this holy month, most of us Malaysians get to go home earlier. Due to that, I get to reach home around 6pm. Woohoo~

5) Evening exercise with parents. Since I get to come home earlier than usual, my dad especially, will accompany me to walk up the hill around my housing area for evening exercise. Needless to say, a bonding session. That's THE best time for us to exchange stories and update on our daily life. :)

6) More time with family. This year, my family prefers to pray together at home for teraweh. It makes us feel closer and more relaxed. Of course I miss the mosque once in awhile, but everybody has their own way to make their Ramadan meaningful right? To us, this is how we like it to be. :)

7) I just love how my family spends more time reading the Quran compared to other months. See, Ramadan is just so special and powerful. It's such a beautiful sight having to see everyone so engrossed with the Quran and is so determined to khatam before Ramadan comes to an end. I hope I can do it.. 4 and a half juzu' more to go in just 8 days...

Well, those are about it. Many other things I have witnessed on how this month brings peace and togetherness to the people. Look at the suraus and mosques. People keep on coming in and out. It is something you can't see everyday through out the year. So many other good vibes and beautiful sights I would love to share, but these are ample enough I guess.

Just with the 7 things I have listed, I think I have made it clear enough that Ramadan is such a beautiful month that nobody can deny.


P/S: Don't forget to recite this beautiful piece of doa as many times as possible as it is the most recommended doa during Ramadan.

Allahumma innaka ‘afuwwun kareemun tuhibbul ‘afwa fa’fu ‘annee. 

“Oh Allah, you are the best forgiver, beneficent and merciful. You love forgiveness so forgive me." (at- Tirmidhi).


Have a blessed Ramadan to all. Kejar Lailatul Qadr mari! :)


Thursday, 6 June 2013

Getting Away From Sensitive Issues

What is wrong with us Malaysians?

There are so many things out there that we can talk about, but we just PREFER to talk about sensitive issues.

Number one. About people being FAT.

HELLO~ Even if you are the skinniest person on earth, it doesn't mean you are entitled to easily tell people that they are getting fatter, they are putting on weight or getting rounder at the face. It upsets me everytime I hear those kind of comments. Even if I am not the one to be told off. No matter how outgoing the person can be, I am quite sure he/she doesn't like to hear those unfriendly remarks.

It is not wrong to be honest. Of course being honest is better than saying sweet nothing when your comments are obviously far from the truth. Never never be a hypocrite, please. But in this case, just be honest when it is needed. If you are 100% sure that you are close enough to the person, or you are doing the right thing by telling them, then by all means, carry on. But if you see them once or twice a year, try to keep your mouth CLOSE.

Tell them they are getting fat, and your face might turn flat.

Number two. About people's income.

I don't understand what makes people think it is okay to ask people right at the face about how much they earn. GOSH! What a turn off. I seriously don't know what kind of reaction to give when people easily asking me about my salary. Especially in front of a lot of people. And when the person asking is obviously earning more than I am.

I don't ask people about their income, and I expect they do the same too. But somehow, Malaysians are too blunt.

Number three. About people's private life.

Malaysians think that we are being friendly by asking these kind of questions:

"Why are you not married yet?" to unmarried people above 23 years old.
"When are you getting a baby?" to married people without a child.
"When is your son/daughter getting another sibling?" to married people with just one child.

And many many more questions to that effect.

Shut up you stranger. You irritate me.

Okay, I'm gonna stop at 3. I have more, but I might get a heartburn thinking about insensitive things we Malaysians love to talk about.

Try having more neutral conversations and less personal issues especially when you meet people who you seldom see.

Come on. It is not too late to change.

Thursday, 23 May 2013

The 3 Stooges

Life is a mystery.

At one time, I decided not to make new friends anymore. Making friends is rather easy, but maintaining a good friendship isn't. People come into your life, become important at one point, and become irrelevant after awhile.

That is not weird at all.

I treasure my friends a lot that it makes me feel bad if I can't keep in touch with them in a regular basis. That's one of the reasons why I decided that I should stop making new friends and just stick to those who are already in my list.

People know that on the first day of a job, people normally want to make an impression to be able to blend in and to socialize around. 

Well, I grew tired of that. Tired of socializing around and trying to impress people.

That is why when I was offered a job, I was so glad to know that there are only a few people working in the company. Indirectly, my wish came true. I didn't have to put much effort on making impressions. :P

However, weirdly enough, the place I am working right now turns out to be the best place for me to meet great friends. Not 1, but 2 great people whom I genuinely enjoy being with. They are just as crazy as I am and definitely the last people to be boring. 

Well, that's why we can just plan. But verily, only Allah knows what's best for His servants. :)

This current life I'm living now, is the best I could ever wished for. 

Oh, if you are wondering how 'big' the company is...

There are just US in the office... plus our boss! ;p

No matter how different we may look like, you will be surprised to see how much alike we are when we are together. :)

Tuesday, 30 April 2013


Must be my bad habit. I update my blog only on the last day of every month it seems. Well, I have an extra reason to update my blog now, as it is a holiday tomorrow ie the labour day!! YAY!!!!

I must say this, it excites me more since this is my first time taking advantage of this day as i am now a working lady. Oh yeah~ you heard me, I have started working!! :D

Even i can't believe that I have worked for a month. Tomorrow is only my second month and I am still very energetic and positive about this job.

I sincerely love my current job. I remember some people mentioning to me (with good intention i suppose) not to fall in love with the first job. It should only be a stepping stone for me to find a better opportunity.

Yes, it is indeed a very (VERY) small company, but as far as i am concerned, I love my colleagues, I have a helpful and kind boss, the office is cosy with beautiful view and I can get cheap Malay food right in front of our building. All these factors have made me decided that this is indeed the perfect job for me.

Not to mention that I can learn a lot here. :)

So, if you are wondering about my current life, I can answer that easily.

Life is Good! ;)

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for sorting my life out for me.. I am really really grateful with the turnout. :)

My desk! :)

Thursday, 28 March 2013

How important are you?

If I were much younger, I might have said directly to my friends, "Eh, tak ajak aku pun!" which means, "Why didn't you invite me out too?" whenever I know some friends hang out together without me.

However, I don't think it bothers me as much now.

I have passed the stage where making friends is the key to life. Right now, I am more keen to keep the ones whom I treasure the most and only the ones who still bother to keep in touch with me regularly.

I know it is not easy to read one's mind, but it is not hard to tell how important (or not important) you are to some people.

If you are always left out from some events, you should get the idea that you are not in their VIP list anymore. 

If people keep on having the same excuse of forgetting to reply to your email/whatsapp/messages, it also indirectly means you are definitely not in the top priority of their life.

If you are the only person who keeps on insisting to meet up but the other person always forgets to get back to you, it probably means you are the only one who is serious to keep in touch. So, just forget it.

If you get messages from your friends telling you how much they miss you, and you cooperatively trying to keep in touch with them again but in the end they are nowhere to be found, it implies that they were just saying some sweet nothing and were not really sincere in saying the ‘miss’ word. So, get a grip!

People can justify by saying that they are really seriously undoubtedly very very busy with work and of course, with their family. When that happens, nothing else you can do besides saying how much you understand.

Well, what other things do you think you should say? It’s not about being hypocrite by not telling your true feelings, but being mature is the best thing you could do to save the relationship.

I also realise that showing how much you care does not seem to be the best thing anymore. You might sound like a busybody rather than a caring person. Getting older also means having more responsibility and more problems. Since you might not want to create extra problem to your friends, staying away from them once in a while would be the key.

Because one day, you might just want them to stay away from you too.  

Because one day, you might need your own space too.

Thursday, 28 February 2013



I have one of my own. :)

1) To visit Mekah again some day and perform Hajj or umrah with the loved ones.

2) To have a relaxing beach getaway at Santorini and watch the sunset.

3) To scuba dive at Sipadan Island and enjoy the clear, sparkling blue sea.

4) To travel somewhere preferably around Europe with the WHOLE family.

and the list goes on


As much as I am eager to cross them out as soon as possible, I am very sure that even if I have accomplished every single one of them, I will definitely fill the space with more and more wishes.

It is a never ending addiction. People just want more every time, don't we?

Though there is one particular thing that I always wish for. And I hope that it is not just a wishful thinking...

  To see the Malaysians united and be proud of our own country somehow.

Wednesday, 30 January 2013

Past Present Future

Today is the last day of January 2013 though sometimes I think that I am still living in 2012.

Oh my, please don't tell me that I'm still living in the past. That might sound cruel. (T_T)

Though one thing for sure, I do realise that I think of the good old days quite a lot. (Even the not so old days ie 2012.) Might sound a bit too sentimental, but I seriously am aware that I have been living a good life since I was small. Nothing I have regretted experiencing nor doing. Everything is for the best of my future self and I have always believed in that.

Anyway, I don't actually choose to remember of the past, but somehow when you live the daily life, you might come across something that would remind you of them unintentionally. Just like when you listen to the radio, some songs just remind you of some happenings, or some smell might trigger your memory of someone or some place.

I just came back from London for the long awaited Graduation Day and from Holland to meet my adorable cute new born nephew. Lovely lovely trip it was. It was SUPER cold as it was DEEP WINTER, yet surprisingly refreshing. :)

 As refreshing as looking at this healthy nephew of mine. Oh, I love you Stijn~ <3 i="">

I have always loved London as it is practically like my second home. I love it with all my heart. The place has been so familiar, so friendly and so much alive with so many things to do, to see and to visit. But truth be told, it was depressing at the same time. Mainly because of the British weather.

Well, to be fair, there was also the typical Dutch weather just as bad as the British weather with heavy rain on our second last day in Holland. But the sun somehow came out and we had a beautiful semi-cold sunny day. The snow on the ground had melted and the reflection of the sun on the defrosting canals was brilliant, making the scene totally stunning and unforgettable. :)

Anyway, back in London, it was even more depressing when almost every place I passed through just reminded me of my student days. How my friends and I used to spend a lot of times at some places, how we enjoyed each other's company so much and how much London has witnessed our friendship and the process of my growing up.

As much as it was sweet to be back there, it was also heart twinging.

Only a few of my friends were in London during my last visit there and only a few could make it for the Graduation Day. But do not get me wrong, I totally enjoyed myself at the ceremony. It was one great great event! Short yet memorable. Plus, my parents were there to share the beautiful memory and to see me getting the scroll on the stage. Love my parents to bits for that. :') MuahXx!

Gradution Day with my parents by my side :)
I also made use of my limited time in London and somehow managed to meet most of my good friends there. Would love to have more time there but it was just.... TOO cold. :P

I am just glad that I had the chance to go to London again and wore the robe designed by Vivienne Westwood. Didn't get the opportunity to have that feeling in Japan. No graduation gown there for sure. Again, I am really glad to have attended the ceremony. Proud to be there and proud to have graduated from King's College London. :)

Proudly wearing our hooded robes :P
It was a white Graduation Day for me as London was covered with snow most of the time when I was there. I was so happy that I could experience the snow again, and this time it was even a better feeling as I had my parents to experience it with me! Yeehaa~~


 Scary looking snowmen as some people have told us, but we built them ourselves and proud of that. :D

Yay~ It's snowing! :) 

Bye bye King's College!! 

 In the college just to retrace my steps as a student there :)
Had breakfast at The Breakfast Club with dearest Ainul
Graduation Day with sweet little Jenny

 Janani and Asuka :)

At Camden Town~ Another 'Brr' day.

Finally... Thank you London for the great memories. I shall visit you again one day. InsyaAllah. 

Thank you 2012. You had been more than awesome. May 2013 be just as great. InsyaAllah. :')

And of course, thank you Allah for everything. Without You, there will be no future let alone the present or the past. I love you. :)

  With Abang Nash, Kak Nora and Stijn. Miss you guys already!!