Thursday, 26 November 2015

Competitive much?

Sometimes i don't understand. I rarely want to compete with people. Though when i do, i am very competitive. Usually it involves competitions or exams when you obviously need to switch on your competitive mode.

However, in just everyday life, i see nothing that appeals to me to become a competitive person. I don't see the need to compete in getting people's love and attention, i don't see the need to compete in winning people's heart, i don't see the need to compete in showing how nice and likeable i am to people around me.

I am basically happy with myself, my circle of people, my beliefs and where i am. I don't need people's assurance of what i should and shouldn't do in becoming a model stereotype lady.

I sincerely can't see what is there in me that people need to be so jealous about to actually compete with whatever i do. I am just being myself. Loud, annoying, sometimes chatty (or overly chatty..depends on how people see it really :p), easily agitated, too frank, not ladylike enough and many other not-so-wife-to-be-material characteristics.

Despite being all that, i am veryyy grateful to have people liking me for who i am. I don't ask everyone around to like me. There is no such thing, is there? Hence, when i have a friend who is always acting sweet in front of others but finding fault in me each time and not exactly that sweet towards me, as if trying to show that she is better off than me, i kinda feel weird.

What are you trying to prove actually Missie? Why are you always not happy with what i do and forever trying to show that you are always better in every single thing you do or have? Yes i might be annoying, but i don't bother you, do i? Can't you just be happy for me once in a while?

Oh well...it's my birthday today and somehow that person's real self has been reflected clearly today. Though my sister always says, that she has seen that side of this friend of mine since long time ago.

Anyway, happy birthday to me. I love everyone around me who takes me for who i am. Also, thanks for the lovely wishes people! I feel loved ♡ hehe..

P/s: i miss my partner so much :( i wonder how you are doing there...

Friday, 20 November 2015

Perfect day

The sky was clear as the clouds drifted away. Giving way to the bright yellow sun to perfectly distribute its warmth.

Came then the friendly wind. Blowing gently onto our faces. Slowly wiping away the sweat that was about to trickle.

The leaves on trees collided among themselves. Making soothing sound to our ears which probably we didn't often hear.

Even the birds were chirping a melodious happy melody. As though they were enjoying the moment, equally as the both of us were.

Together we lay down on the grass that felt like a carpet. Neither it was sharp, nor it was wet. It was simply green, soft and comfy.

We gazed into the sky, the beautiful clear blue sky. Appreciating every moment of tranquility while breathing in slowly the freshness of the air.

And we closed our eyes. It was a perfect day.

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As we opened again our eyes, the sun was already setting, the clouds were already nearing. The wind started blowing a bit stronger, giving the both of us a bit of shiver.

The green grass turning dark, as the sky was slowly losing its light.

Although such moment was brief, it was not the end. We both know that another perfect day shall come again.






Wednesday, 11 November 2015

Reminiscing through old notes

I am right now waiting for Isya' prayer at the office. Have a lot of readings to do but I am giving myself a little break. Hence, I browsed my old notes at my Facebook account. I figured that I was quite active with my Facebook back then. And it seems like I was quite excited to write some real lengthy stuff about myself there. >.<

Phew.. Just take a look at what I wrote:

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Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

lots of people have tagged me. hurm, so here goes~

1 - i am a muslim, and proud of it.

2 - i love my family and i would give my life for them. ayah, mami, kak aini, abe!!!! i miss all of u!!! iqa nak balik!!! huhuhu

3 - i can talk very fast in one breath, without stopping! (somebody! plz stop me)

4 - i love cats!!! they dont have to be siamese cats or persian cats, just normal cats are cute enough... owww... i miss my cats!!!!!

5 - i like when people say my name when talking to me. i seriously do! :P

6 - friends come next after my family.

7 - and i learn to appreciate them as much as they appreciate me.

8 - i love travelling!! i really dont mind spending much money to see the world.

9 - i am a nature lover~! jangan tak caya!! im serious!

10 - i love the sea!! i can sit by the beach doing nothing just to relax and enjoy the beauty of life. oh, and i enjoy watching sunset!!!~ sangat cantik! ^_~

11- soothing and sentimental songs are nice! (dygta best!)

12- personally i feel old songs are much better. that's why im still stuck with the 80's and 90's songs.

13- i have moved to a lot of places since small. i have been to johor bharu, kelana jaya(yeke?), ttdi, malacca (oh, i miss skjpians so much >_

14- i am now studying in kobe university and i love it here! kobe is such a great place to be in. not too kampung yet not too crowded. just nice!

15- i am so glad to have such great company in kobe. fridays are the best!! ske main ping pong ngan korang~!! saturdays and sundays are great too, especially when we can get together. dear kobeians!! u guys are my family here!! thanks so much!

16- i love malaysian food!!! especially spicy food. podeh, sodap! nyum2! sambal belacan is my favourite. sambal belacan kedai sila rasa in UM sangat besh! ^_^

17- i love sports!! though im not that athletic. hehe... i contributed so little to perwira back in school years. but i really enjoy basketball! badminton!! ping pong!! and juge, futsal, kalau ade lagi... hehe

18- my mood depends on the weather. at times! heheh... i smile widely as i wake up early in the morning if the sun shines brightly. (utk kes tido balik pas subuh, ok!)

19- i can talk on the phone for hours. it's easier, and less confusing compared to sms.

20- i got stuck here, not knowing what else to write.

21- i kinda feel like a loser talking about myself. hahahah.... tapape....

22- i think i was so poyo, grayo, gile kuasa when i was in primary school. especially when i became a prefect.

23- i am postive that i am more mature now. heheh (does anyone want to second this?)

24- i was so selebet(selekeh) during my school days. somebody said so. hahaha... i admit it. but hey, i am still selebet now! not much difference though.

25- i try to live in the present, but of course, the past would not be forgotten. time flies, so i wil try to live life to the fullest. appreciate everything around while we still have the time to do so ^_~

yey! tamat! penat dah

(those who are tagged, feel free to do this tag. tapi, kalau malas takpe ;P)

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I smiled the whole time I read through this note. It sure is funny how much I have changed since then.




Or, haven't I? :P

Monday, 9 November 2015

To be happy

To be happy is to be able to enjoy little things in life,
To be happy is to feel contented with whatever things we have.

To be happy is to be able to love and feel loved by people around,
To be happy is to always feel secure, and to be safe and sound.

To be happy is not always about the things we earn,
But to be happy is to be able to smile without any reason.

To be happy is not how our success is being shared,
But to be happy is to feel good without being compared.

Either to be happy or to be sad,
Is a choice that we have always had.

Be happy and be grateful,
It shall be a life that will always rule.