Thursday, 31 December 2015



Oh well, just thought of joining in the crowd coz I was rather intrigued to see which pictures the app would choose. As expected, pictures from Mekah and Madinah would be in. :P

2015 has been a bit different from previous years. I don't think I have made that many new friends this year, but alhamdulillah, interesting happenings that are important enough for my years to come have taken place. Quite a lot i must say. :)

These 9 pictures only reflect a little part of my life in 2015. Not even one tenth of them. 2015 is a turning point for my future, my career and life as a whole. I am looking forward to 2016  with much hope and wishing that 2016 will be as great. If not, greater, insyaAllah

With that 2015, I bid you farewell. 


Tuesday, 29 December 2015

Sabar & Syukur

There is one thing i know for sure that i am not:
 A patient person. 

My parents always remind me to always be more patient in any situation. I get angry, agitated and sometimes hurt easily that i tend to raise my voice when such situation takes place. Though when i try to control my anger and my voice, it somehow becomes shaky and i start crying.

What i seriously want to be in years to come, is to be a more patient person. To be less temperamental and to be more sensible.

Anyway, i just wanna share something which i think is quite valuable. Each time i almost lose my patience, i will try to remember what a good-hearted friend of mine once told me:
"Sis, jika kita fikir sifat sabar itu adalah sifat terpuji yang pertama, kita silap kerana sifat syukur itu adalah pertama."

He said that when we have syukur in our heart, we can easily have sabar. Because when we are grateful for a certain situation, the feeling overwhelms the regretful feeling or anger that we have inside our heart.

For instance, if we can't go out of the house due to a flat tyre, we should be grateful that the tyre doesn't blow in the middle of nowhere when we are driving. Or if the food that we order tastes aweful, we shouldn't get angry instantly but instead, we should be grateful that we have money to spend outside compared to others who can't even afford a glass of plain water.

In any circumstances, always try to look for something good in everything. Being thankful is always better than complaining about something. 

Bersyukurlah sentiasa. Semoga dengan itu kesabaran akan turut hadir sentiasa. 


Tuesday, 22 December 2015

Fulfilling a childhood dream (in a way)

Oh my God. Please tell me what I am doing here....

As I walked out of the lift, I saw around 20 people were sitting patiently at the seats provided. There was a table for registration, and I made my way to write down my name and IC number.The person in charge passed me a sticker with number 29 written on it, and I stuck it on my shawl. There. As simple as that, I was registered for an audition.

Asking why I was trying out for this audition?
Here's why: I just wanted to do something a bit different and challenge myself for weird things that I have never imagined doing.

I actually have a private things-to-do list, that I would like to do before I actually.. hurm.. well.. die maybe? Trying out for an audition is one of those things. Of course I had once dreamt of becoming an actress or anything that relates to be on TV, but I think I have stopped dreaming because being a realist is so much easier. I figured that I have a job that I enjoy, I have my family around, and people who I love to keep me happy and that's enough.

So that's what I thought. However, after reading or listening to inspiring stories, I just can't help thinking that I should once in a while try to get out of my own comfort zone. 

I just finished rereading a book that I enjoyed so much. It's about a writer who had a writer's block and was encouraged by her editor to take a holiday to take her mind off everything and start afresh. Little did she know that she was bound to encounter countless happenings that lead her out of her own comfort zone.

I believe that life gets pretty flat and boring if we only do the same routine and we are afraid to get out of the circle. Doing something different as simple as trying out a new fashion or taking a new route to work can really make us feel more positive. Planning it ahead somehow makes us feel more excited and look forward for a brand new day.

Now that I have started working, I realise that there is not much impromptu things I have done compared to my student days. I used to just jump on random trains to go to places which I wasn't really sure of, bought bus or flight tickets on impulse to visit friends or family, or even walk aimlessly to unfamiliar areas just to take my mind off the stress.

Nowadays to destress, I prefer to go for body massage which of course, costs quite a lot. I can't simply take a trip to anywhere like those days as I have responsibility towards my job and I don't have that many days off anyway. Oh well,it is still not a good excuse for me not to do something crazy.

So, coming back to my audition story, I actually went through it. ALONE. Was planning to go with my colleagues but they had something else to do as it was planned at the very last minute. And yeah,I didn't do any homework, I just brought along my CV and some photocopied certificates which I already had in my room from my previous interview session.

At one point, I really wanted to make a u-turn and just leave without even going through it. But as I have waited for about 5 hours, I figured that it was only smart if I proceed with the crazy idea. I was just there to tick my list anyway, not to be called for real. :D

My partner was nice enough to give me a call to soothe my nerves a bit before my turn. At that time I just couldn't believe I was about to go for an audition. I didn't have any appetite, I felt like throwing up and my head was spinning. At least with him calling, I could put my mind off the audition. (Thanks for calling! :*)

Actually, I am glad I did it. It was one of my most refreshing acts for the past few years. I could say that it was such a nice experience to see how Sri Pentas actually looks from the inside. I could say that I have been to the cafetaria, washrooms, surau, and the primeworks studios. The people inside the audition room were surprisingly friendly and they instantly made me feel welcomed. They didn't know me yet they wished me luck. Some even gave some tips for the audition. Thanks so much!

 While waiting for my turn :D

The part which I enjoyed so much was of course, when I had to start talking while looking into the camera. Having the camera rolling with a boom mic hanging in the room, I felt like somehow my dream as a young girl has already accomplished.

I am an engineer by education, hence I didn't care what the turn out would be like. Of course as a now-realist, *ehem* I know people with mass comm background will have the advantage. Plus, I was there to fulfill my list. Having those things in my mind, I just performed like how I always am. Just being myself, and no expectations whatsoever. It's somehow a good platform to boost my confidence level.

So,yeah... such a good experience it was. If you are wondering what audition it was, it's an audition to be a host in a popular TV show in TV9. Have a guess? :P

Presenting, one of the contestants.. :D

Monday, 21 December 2015

Right on target

When i am keeping quiet on certain issues, it doesn't necessarily mean i agree with it. It might be because i just hate saying the wrong things. I know that giving my opinion can't simply change one's perception on something, so waiting for a certain eye-opening incident might be worth it.

Seriously i hate portraying myself as a demanding, self - centered, controlling person. Hence, when i am not in agreement, i just avoid talking about that particular topic to avoid any awkwardness. 

As a person with certain experience, i think i am capable of reading certain situations. Not that i usually make announcements of my own assessment, but when it is right on target, i just remind myself not to add salt to anyone's injury. 

To be on the safe side, always remember to try to be the better person. 

Just some random thoughts. Comments are not welcomed.

Sunday, 13 December 2015

Be in my shoes

When I kind of disagree with a person's action, it's quite easy for me to say to the person directly only if i am not that attached with the person. However, it gets especially hard when it involves someone who i am pretty close to.

Reason being, i am too scared to hurt the person's feeling. In the end, I become too careful in giving advice or voicing out my opinion. Somehow, the message that i try to convey, does not successfully get across. 

I try once in a while writing here in my blog to pass some message. However, i know for sure that not that many people read it. I used to write and share the link in my Facebook or Twitter or during student days, my YM status. As i am not really into Facebook anymore, i feel kind of embarrass to share some petty issues there. Knowing people nowadays only share more serious and global issues, i find exposing my blog to the world is kind of... lame..

What i do now is that i usually try to nonchalantly talk and give some examples to people. Probably they can see what i am doing, but i don't really bother. Afterall, i am dying to get my message across, only not in a direct manner.

I basically give examples to make them see a bigger picture. A picture of them inside it. Of them being in other people's shoes. If they have a feeling that it is NOT the way they want to be treated, then they should get the message that they SHOULD NOT be doing the same.

Some people do not realise that 2 can play that game. Or probably they can't see that what goes around comes around. For example, if some people dislike their parents for some reason and treat them badly, can't they see that their beloved children may one day do the same thing to them? 

There are a few other examples i wanna give but i guess people can think by themselves.. All that i really wanna say here is to always put ourselves in other people's situation before doing or saying something. 

Only then, we will know if it hurts others or not.

I miss taking shoe shots like this :)

Friday, 11 December 2015

Stop and Feel

Do you realise how busy we are with our daily lives that we tend to take everything for granted? We take the people we love for granted, we take the things that we enjoy so much for granted, and we take our precious time for granted. We have been living a very fast paced life with less appreciation of the things that we see everyday.

We say we love our friends and family so much, but yet, when we are with them, we spend more time with gadgets. When we have the time to talk to our loved ones, we prefer to complain on how lives have been so hard on us rather on saying how thankful we are to at least have people around who still appreciate our presence.

We say we love having free time so that we can enjoy every second by relaxing with the things and people we enjoy. But when we do have the time, we waste it with useless social media. We prefer interacting with the people in a different area rather than interacting with the people right across of us just in the same room.

We simply walk pass the things that we used to enjoy looking without even having a glance at it. We just listen to songs that we like so much without focusing on the melody or why we like them so much. We wash our hands using that favourite soap of ours without even smelling in the sweet smell which we used to enjoy sniffing in deeply when we were younger. We gobble our food without even taking time to enjoy every bite of it.

Why? Because everything we do in our daily life is just like  pressing a replay button. We are so used to everything. The people, the place, the taste, the smell, that we forget how to feel. We become less sensitive. We care even less.

Asking further, why? Because we have so much in our minds. Our work and the stressful life make us live this way. We somehow give in to such lifestyle. We make ourselves miserable for not even trying to make time for ourselves. For those who we love. For the things that we enjoy the most.

Consequently making other people around feel miserable too.


This is a reminder for me and for everyone, to take our time, to be happy, and to enjoy even the simplest things in life. Even if we have to, just stop and feel.. the presence of everything.

Saturday, 5 December 2015

Those were the days

Sometimes i just miss those days.

The days when i didn't have to think about things that deeply. Those carefree days when i couldn't even be bothered of what people think. The days when things were much simpler.

The days when i think i smiled so much more.